_6th month trivia_

that was the night that i will never ever forget..

i cried like no chance to stop me crying anymore..

devil's prada.. a very memorable movie..

interesting movie.. yes..

after watching the show, we talk..

told her about my feelings for the past few days we have misunderstanding..

more than three times i poke her chest to let her feel that i really hate when we quarrel..

she cried when i'm expressing my feelings and thoughts..

we end up hugging each other and decided to go to sleep..

i received sms, but don't bother to read..

she took my phone and ask me to read my sms..

"msta?" a very casual word that a friend will ask u..

i suspected the sms is from a new friend we met during marose bday.

i purposely deleted his number to avoid any issue coz he keep calling me to ask
about my close friend which that time got no balance in her phone so not able to answer
phone call.. =x

can feel that baboyy mood turn differently..

before we go to sleep, she said "at least other people can sms u at this time and ask how are you"

this statement made me feel uncomfortable and not really able to sleep so i keep asking her
what is the problem?

she don't bother to talk, i feel more comfortable and decided to go home.

she grab my hand and ask me to just stay over and sleep..

i cried because after we talk earlier, here we go again, another dispute..

i am very irritated that i can't control myself until i cried..

she lean her head from my back and tell me, i always cry because of her,
told me it's better to give space for each other and settle things..

after hearing those words, the feeling of losing someone you choose to be with is what exactly i felt..

i cant control my tears.. it's the only time i heard myself again to cry so loud and pitiful..

decided to get off the bed and change my clothes.. i just want to go home..

i am crying so loud, i don't even care about the people ard us.. i don't even care if her aunt and uncle will awaken by my loud cry.. =x

she grab be forcedly.. she really pull and hug me tightly while uttering the words "i'm sorry"

that night is a nightmare.

i can't stop crying.. i just don't believe in giving space for each other, for me it's equivalent to break up..

she keep uttering that words.. end up she uttering "i'm sorry, please don't leave me"

isn't she was the one who request for a space, space for the two of us.. end up she will ask me not to leave her.. =x

i really won't! gaga! can't you see how hard i cried that night??

i treasure this relationship.. a lot.

more than you expect.